A New Year’s Resolution For Everyone


A friend of mine, Tracy, put a post on her FaceBook page about “Awakening to your own beauty”. It is actually a link to an article on the FaceBook page of Brian Shulz, a psychotherapist. The article includes an exercise titled “The Eyes of Love”. After reading it I decided to post the exercise here and suggest that everyone do this frequently during the coming year.

I’m sure we all agree that we need more love in the world today. What better way to help accomplish that than to start with ourselves. After all, you can’t give love to others if you don’t have it in and for yourself. So …(Imagine the theme music from Mission Impossible playing in the background) … Your mission, should you decide to accept it, is to bring more love into the world in 2014 by performing the following exercise frequently during the year:


1. To begin, make a list of all the beautiful, lovable and admirable aspects of yourself. Examples- your quality of kindness; or courage; your sense of humor; intelligence; honesty/integrity; passion; determination; your various talents (artistic/musical/leadership/writing/cooking/healing/etc.). The longer you calmly and objectively contemplate yourself, with an open heart and mind, the more positive inner qualities you will be delighted to find!

2. Once you have made your list (and feel free to add to it) spend a minute or two quietly absorbing/dwelling upon what you are seeing about yourself. Let it “sink in” to your mind and heart that this beautiful “human masterpiece” that possesses all these lovely inner qualities- is YOU!

3. Now, go to the mirror and look this beautiful person in the eye. Imagine that you are the kind of mother or father who is always encouraging and knows exactly what to say. Or, imagine that you are speaking with the voice of your own soul. The basic concept is that the person in the mirror (the part of you that has been anxious/depressed/hurt from self-criticism) needs to see and feel how beautiful, valid and lovable she/he really is! And you- the wise and loving core of you- will supply this ultimately reassuring message.

Each of the phrases, while deceptively simple, are emotionally very evocative. Each one vibrates at a frequency that touches the heart and rings through the body and the mind. As you work with them, keep breathing and keep feeling.

4. Keeping eye contact with yourself and speaking out loud (both of these help the new message/attitude sink into your subconscious and replace the voice of self-criticism) say these three things:

a. Hi ___ (use your name or an endearment such as ‘honey’ or ‘sweety’). I see and love so many wonderful things in you. You are so beautiful and perfect to me!

b. Look at all the amazing parts of yourself. You are so kind, so brave, so passionate, so determined etc.etc.

c. You do NOT need to change- ever. All you need is to completely be WHO YOU ARE!

5. Using your intuition, repeat certain key words or phrases that you really need to hear.

PJM Note: If you are an optimist, as I am, you know this is not an impossible mission, but the ultimate destiny of our planet. Have a Happy New Year!

Spirit Walking Journey

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I wrote my first blog for Spirit Walking Journal on June 21st, 2013 during the first quarter of the Moon. I awoke at midnight that night and couldn’t get back to sleep. I tossed and turned. Finally I got up at 2:00 AM, put on my necklaces, got my rattle, put on the “Awakening …” CD and journeyed into the Lower World.

When I arrived, my power animals came out of the cave to meet me. They usually wait for me inside. They simply sat there and stared at me. I didn’t realize what they were doing until later in the journey. They were demonstrating their respect for me.

I went to the Upper World with my younger teacher and my female teacher to see the Ancient One and my healing guide. When the Ancient One saw me he raised his left hand and gave a shout. A band of unseen indigenous people started chanting “Hey-oh-ah, Hey-oh-ah, Hey-oh-ah …” this went on for a while. I understood they were welcoming me and showing their support for my blogging efforts. This welcome made me feel good but in a different way than I have felt before. I believe that we gain power and respect from the spirit world when we demonstrate our belief in it and show proper respect for it. My journey ended and I went back to bed.

Later the next day, June 22nd, I thought about the relationship that exists between us when we are in human form, and the spirits who support us. The relationship requires that we act in order to gain the support our spirit friends. Their purpose is the same as our purpose; to help make our world a better place to live. But they cannot support us unless we get into contact with them and let them show us how they can help. So our cooperation with Helpful Spirits is important; like one hand helping the other. This is significant!

If any of you who read this blog have thought about spirit walking, you may want to give it a try. I can tell you, as one who has been walking this path for two and a half years, it is real. It is a wonderful spiritual path. It is easy to learn. It has given me a personal experience I never received anywhere else. It is worthwhile! Blessings to you and your family and friends.

Next blog: A New Year’s Resolution For Everyone

A Prayer for the New Year


May you celebrate this Holiday Season in a way that is spiritually meaningful to you. May you celebrate it in love and friendship with your friends and family. May God send all of us continued blessings.

I copied the following prayer from the book, VisionSeeker, by Dr. Hank Wesselman, page 293. I also modified it for the New Year. It’s a prayer I have adopted and repeat daily. It’s non-denominational and is intended for the welfare of all mankind. The ending phrase, Amama Ua Noa, is Hawaiian.

A Prayer for the New Year

Oh God in heaven,

You who are the Beginning and the End,

You who created everything in the universe,

Bless this sacred Earth.

Bless this river of Life.

Bless our atmosphere.

Bless us and our endeavors.

Send us your angels and helpful spirits.

All are welcome. May they

Bring forth abundance without limit;

May they bring us good health;

May they grant us spiritual insight

And may they grant us true understanding.

May the Earth continue to live.

May You grant us long life.

And may all these blessings be manifested.

Amama Ua Noa!

(My prayer is free. It has flown)

Two Dreams and an Omen

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In May of this year I was getting ready to start a blog on writing. In the back of my mind I thought about starting one like Spirit Walking Journal but I balked. I wasn’t sure I should. I wondered what other people would think, and I thought I should go with the one about writing. One night I had a dream that I was back in the army. My surroundings were dark and dreary. I was writing but I was writing what a man standing behind me was telling me to write. Since I was in the army I had to do what he ordered me to do. The next day I told this dream to my friend Ze. She said, “Maybe you aren’t supposed to do that. Maybe it’s not what you really want to do.” That made sense, but I still wasn’t sure.

The next day I was at a friend’s house. I went out to my car to get something. As  stood near the car I became aware of something very large flying my way. A blue heron flew directly overhead at roof level. The Great Blue Heron is a wading bird. It stands about 42 inches tall and has a wing span of 72 inches. When it flies low overhead, you notice it. I made a mental note to check “Animal Speak” to see what symbolism it carried.

That night I had a second dream about being in the army. this time I was helping prepare food for the other soldiers to eat. As I stirred an enormous pot of chili, someone came along and poured a disgusting substance into the pot. I can’t describe how bad this stuff was. I was forced to keep stirring the pot, mixing the material into the chili. I thought, “Other people are going to have to eat this shit.” Then I woke up.

The next day I read that the key energies associated with the blue heron are Aggressive Self-Determination, and Self-Reliance. That did it for me. I put my writing blog on hold and started to prepare for this blog. As I look back on my life, I can see that I always did what other people expected me to do. In more recent years I have been forced to scrap my past expectations and figure out what I, Paul McAllister, wanted to do. I have been following my own path for a while. But the dreams and the omen were strong messages. I know I must place absolute trust in my decisions. Although my life is different than it used to be, I enjoy it, even though there is more uncertainty. The price of freedom is accountability.

Going With The Flow


I know. I missed two blog dates in a row. It bothers me. I’m worry about what my readers will think. I shouldn’t. So, inspiration being scarce, I did a tarot reading for myself this morning looking for a blog subject. As usual, the cards hit the nail on the head. They told me I am at a point of change in my life and that expecting constant inspiration at such a time is somewhat self-indulgent. Change doesn’t happen over night and sometimes occurs so slowly we need days, weeks or months to figure out that it has happened.

Right now it’s leaving me with a feeling that I have lost my focus (Aw, poor baby!). However I am becoming aware of a new thought in the distant recesses of my brain. It looks like I am supposed to get into a teaching mode. No, this is not a prelude to a marketing announcement about spirit walking classes I will teach in order to get rich. (As you can see, there is a lot of self scrutiny going on here too.) It may be that I will get into teaching the craft of writing. What better way to sharpen my own writing skills than to teach them?

Prior to last May, I was intending to start a blog for Baby Boomers that taught the basics of writing; something that would encourage others to do what I have done. Share the fun of writing with my peers. Then in May I had two dreams and an omen which convinced me to start this blog. It was as though the spirit world intervened and said, “Hey, forget that, teach this!” So that’s what I did. I’m not thinking of ending this blog; perhaps I’ll just start another. I enjoy this as an outlet for my experiences. (Self indulgent?) The dreams and the omen were pretty direct. I’ll share them with you next time.

Next Blog: Two Dreams and an Omen

Nelson Mandela

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Get a free numerology report at http://www.cafeastrology.com/numerology2/index.htm . That’s where I got the following report for Nelson Rolihlahla Mandela, born July 18, 1918 (source: Wikipedia):

Life Path Number 8: The path you should take through life.

You were born to lead and your Life Path will provide you with opportunities to express your God given talents. Indeed, your success may well be measured in terms of accomplishments, which could take on historical proportions.

Life Destiny Number 9: Those things you must accomplish.

Your destiny is to love all mankind without condition. You do truly want ‘peace on earth and good will toward man’ and will work to make those conditions a reality.

Soul Number 8: Deepest desires and dreams.

Your inner desire is to lead, to take control of the world around you. Since your talents lend themselves to this desire it is very likely your desires will be fully satisfied.

Personality Number 1: The personality traits others will know you by.

As is fitting with the number 1’s prime directive to lead, those with a 1 Personality Number have the qualities of a natural born leader. They are also blessed with a mind capable of formulating innovative solutions to old and new problems alike.

Maturity Number 8: The person you will come to be.

Those with an 8 as their Maturity Number will find rewards through their accomplishments.Their early years will be spent learning how to apply power without becoming dictatorial and finding a balance between the material and spiritual world. As you mature you will be called upon more and more often to lead others. If you learn to apply authority without becoming tyrannical you may well be thought of as one of the world’s great leaders in your later years.

MY COMMENTS: Remember that these traits were part of Nelson Mandela from the day he was born. He had the free will to choose them or to ignore them. Our world was blessed that he recognized his strengths and talents and used them to improve our lives. Nelson Mandela was a wonderful man. My God bless Earth with more people who will follow in his footsteps and live up to his standards!

Shamanic Tools: Numerology

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How accurate is numerology? You decide. What follows is from an online numerological report I ran for the Dalai Lama. He was born Jetsun Jamphel Ngawang Lobsang Yeshe Tenzin Gyatso on July 6, 1935 (Wikdpedia).

Life Path Number  22:(The path he should take through life) “You are a builder on a grand scale and possess lofty ideals aimed at improving our world. Whether you build structures or governments or organizations, you will turn your dreams into reality. Regardless of the arena you choose, you will be deemed an expert in your field and inspire others to be their very best.”

Life Destiny Number 6: (Things he must accomplish) “Your sense of beauty and community will make you a harmonizing force for those around you. You will bring to our world two qualities it is all too often missing: love and balance.”

Soul Number 9: (His deepest desires and dreams) “Your compassion will often lead you to sacrifice your own needs to address those of others. While this sacrifice will tear at you some, your soul’s need to heal others will over-rule any concern you have for yourself.”

Personality Number 6: (The personality traits others will know him by) “Six personalities are great counselors and very faithful to their loved ones.”

Maturity Number 1: (The person he will come to be) “The life of a person with a  1 Maturity Number should be marked by assuming roles of leadership and developing a self-reliant, pioneering spirit.”

I am not a Buddhist, but I am familiar with Buddhism and respect its principles and teachings. I believe that the Dalai Lama is one of those rare people who deserve to be called a Holy Man. If you have ever heard him talk or read any of his books you know what I mean.

Soul Retrieval: Steve


Steve and I have been friends since 2006. Even though he is younger than I am, he has been pursuing an alternate spiritual lifestyle much longer than I have. I mention this because he had interesting experiences during the soul retrieval and I think it is because of his background.

On March 7, 2013 Steve arrived at my house at 7:00 PM. After we chatted a while I reminded him how I conduct soul retrievals and how the process flows. Steve laid on a blanket on the dining room floor. I read a short piece I wrote on being receptive, just to get him in the mood, and then began drumming. Next I toned and rattled for about five minutes. Then I put a CD on and laid down next to him. As the rattle and drumming rhythms started I asked my healing guide for help and we went on the journey.

We immediately encountered a young version of Steve as an adult. I easily recognized him even though his grey hair was dark black. He wore a long sleeved, yellow shirt with thin blue and red lines and grey slacks. The soul part quickly agreed to return and indicated he was bringing forgiveness back. The forgiveness was associated with his first marriage. It was forgiveness for everyone including himself. After he agreed to return, his clothing changed to a long sleeved blue shirt and black slacks.

I asked if this part knew of more parts that could return and he said yes and led us to a child version of Steve. The child was dressed in a red shirt and blue jeans, like Steve wore to my house. However the child did not want to come back. I asked why he left and he said he was afraid of his father. My healing guide picked the child up, held him lovingly and convince him to return with us.

I checked to see if there were any power animals wanting to join Steve at this time but there were none. I was ready to return but my guide said there was no hurry so we listened to the remaining CD track. Then I invited the soul parts to join us, which they did, and we returned to ordinary consciousness. I blew the soul parts into Steve’s chest and ended the soul retrieval. Steve returned to ordinary consciousness right way and we discussed what happened.

As it turns out, Steve went on his own journey as soon as I started drumming at the beginning. He saw pleasant shapes, and three colored long-stemmed glasses. An old American Indian woman poured seeds into one of the glasses and told Steve to drink them. He did. Next he saw an old American Indian man and they both watched as a series of young boys appeared before him, one at a time, and disappeared with a popping sound. Then the session ended.

We talked about what I saw. Steve said the yellow shirt and grey slacks are among his favorites and that he has several blue shirts. Blue is one of his favorite colors. He also said that the forgiveness regarding his first marriage made a lot of sense. Regarding his father, Steve said his father was never abusive, but was a strict disciplinarian; Steve always wanted to please his father. Steve said he saw an animal in his experience – it was a badger. I got my copy of “Animal Speak”, read the description and Steve said the information made sense to him. Steve said he felt like he was wearing a heavy hat during the soul retrieval, but this had happened to him during other deeply spiritual experiences.

As a final note, during this retrieval I was questioning my own effectiveness and value in the event. However, I just moved forward and everything worked out. I was reminded of the Nike ad – Just Do It! The journey went quickly from my point of view and I was surprised, and pleased, when Steve told me of his experiences.

Shamanic Tools: Words


Words are tools that are easily overlooked. We take them for granted. Yet, in my opinion, they are the most powerful tools we have at our disposal. The power of words is indirectly expressed, but implied, in one of the ancient writings of India, the Brihadaranyaka Upanishad (IV.4.5) : “You are what your deep, driving desire is. As your desire is, so is your will. As your will is, so is your deed. As your deed is, so is your destiny.”

I’m currently reading an interesting book titled the Energy of Words by Michelle Arbeau, Llewellyn Publications, 2013. It analyzes the numerological value of words. In her Introduction she discusses the law of attraction and how it seems difficult to use. She says it is difficult because we use more negative words than positive words in our self-talk, sabotaging our efforts to succeed. She makes a good point. Visualization is only part of the law of attraction. If we visualize correctly but undercut our efforts with our thoughts, “I hope this works” or “I’ll try this and see if it works”, then we are working against our hopes and dreams.

The same is true for labels we use for ourselves. By the way, a great book on the numerology of peoples’ names is Numerology: The Romance in Your Name, by Dr. Juno Jordan; I highly recommend it. But names are not the only labels we use for ourselves. We hear the name shaman along this path. Numerology indicates that name equates to the number 20 which further reduces to the number 2 which, according to Michelle Arbeau, is associated with the title supportive guide. On the other hand, the label medicine maker equates to (medicine = 8, maker = 3) the number 11 which reduces further to 2. This may seem the same as the value for shaman but it is not. This (11/2) is one of the Master-Numbers in numerology. It is the highest spiritual number and is associated with the title spiritual-guide. The difference is subtle but significant.

Other labels are interesting to compare: Mom/Dad, Teacher/Student, Leader/Follower. Michelle discusses all of them in her book. But the main point is that the words we use every day have a positive or negative influence and it is in the here and now of our communications, written or verbal, where most of the influence, negative or positive, occurs. I’m going to discover the positive words and use those most frequently, especially in my self-talk.  Words are the most powerful tools we have.

Next blog: Soul Retrieval for Steve.

Thanksgiving? Bah! Humbug!


I realize most people are not as optimistic as I am. It’s part of my personality type (ESFJ). I can’t help it; a leopard can’t change its spots. So this is for Americans who are having a tough time; middle class and below.

Our situation is such that many dreams of success have been shattered. This loss causes us to be disappointed and worried for our friends, our families and ourselves. It wasn’t that long ago that we looked at the prosperity and wealth of the past and assumed it would continue, uninterrupted, into our future. But it hasn’t.

We have to decide how we are going to deal with our loss of trust and feelings of increased anxiety. But how do we adjust to these difficult times? One way is to realize that America is still the country of great abundance; people risk their lives trying to come here to live. They come from countries where they have no freedom, no shelter, no clothing, no food. When they hear us talking about tough times they probably smile at our concerns because abundance, like beauty, is in the eye of the beholder. They have relatives in foreign countries who would change places with us in an instant.

Above all, we must be realistic in our expectations because it is becoming apparent that good times are not right around the corner. We must also be hopeful. My parents lived through the Great Depression; a previous time of great loss and anxiety. They were afraid for their future too. But they answered the challenge. They not only survived it, but they overcame it. This is what we must do. No one knows how long that will take nor how difficult it will be. In the meantime we must appreciate our friends and families and the good things we do have and keep working to improve our lives and communities. If we do, one day we’ll look up and see the sun is shining brightly again.